Overcoming Depression, Anxiety, Low Self Worth, Overcoming an old mindset and allowing Christ to creating a new mindset, a Christ like mind set. To overcome any of these, the first thing you must understand is depression, anxiety, low self worth, and all the other things are addictions.

Think about it. If they were not addictions, they would be easy to overcome. Is that not right? It is easier to stay in a depressed, lowly state of mind. I am the first to admit, getting over it and overcoming all these things is very difficult. It is easier to remain in that state of mind. It is easier to complain and wallow in misery, it’s easier to stress and worry and cry out woe is me. It is more easy to stay stuck in this mindset than to come out and be another one of the worlds success stories, and become an overcomer in Christ Jesus.

As long as you stay in that state of mind you develop a mindset. Because the mindset is easy and it flows like clockwork it becomes addictive. I mean why fight these demons when it is so much easier to stay in rejection and get the attention you seek. If it is attention you seek, you’re getting it without thought. There is always someone to agree with your complaint, or your view. You know, there is always someone that has that same rejected mindset as you.

There is always someone to blame causing you to have anxiety attacks. It is easier to blame everybody around you. For me, it is easier to blame my childhood. I mean; you know I grew up low self esteem and depressed right? I’ve told you this ump-teen times. This is the reason it is hard for me to move forward. This is why the book isn’t published, the grant isn’t written, the 40 acres and my mule aren’t manifested. The past continue’s to haunt me. Fear still grips me in some areas of my life. The fear is kicking my butt right now. But why? If fear is False Evidence Appearing to be Real, what is stopping me?

I have been told over and over that I am loved by Christ. I have been told and I have read in the bible, I am one of his chosen loved ones. I have read how he died for me, and I was bought with a price. I was told I was saved by his grace. I know who I am and whose I am. But, there is still this wall I can’t break though. I know I am supposed to accomplish it, but something is holding me back.

In a small voice I heard fear. What! you mean all that I have overcome I still have fear stopping me? I thought about it and began to sink back and feel defeated. While I was listening to a worship song, I began to speak my defeat to the Lord. I thought to myself, you can’t have it all. The song began say; when they put their trap before me, God will block their plan, and then the song began to sing how God fights for me, then I remembered how my late pastor spoke into my life during one of his sermons and he told me how I was already predestined a child of God, and the hip hop pastor Eric Thomas said I was born to win, he said I was built for this.

Yea! I began to think. Like Paul, I went and thought myself happy. :). I am a child of the Most High God! Then Philippians 4:13 came to mind. 13). I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. I since have began to hold my head up high, and think on those things that are pure and I press towards the mark.

I am in a new season of my life and I’m getting ready to enter into another new season within the season I am in. It really is my time to shine. I am in a season of understanding Christ cares for me. He loves me and fights for me. I am in a season of understanding what that means and what it looks like. I am learning what Christ caring for me looks like, and what Christ fighting for me looks like. l am actually able to get up early and spend time with the Lord in prayer and in his word. Meditating on his word, researching and looking up words to get better understanding of what words mean and understand biblical situations and journaling how it equates to my life today. I am in a season of the word of God opening up and coming to life in my life, in real time.

I have spent years contending with depression, contending with family curses and household witchcraft, warring with the evil that had been spoken over my life. I have spent years moving spiritual mountains, severing the head of many Goliaths, kicking down walls of oppression, walls of poverty, and even fighting nameless demons. I spent years releasing spiritual wrecking balls in the spirit realm, and learning to run with the foot men so I can run with the horseman. I spent years Perfecting using my weapons of war, studying as the Most High taught my hands to war and my fingers to fight, learning and understanding what it meant to be an end time warrior, and even slaying my own demons. Fasting and denying myself of worldly lust and pleasure, learning to be content by myself, focusing on my children.

I prayed for my children, warred for my children and now, my children are grown with children of their own. My last one just turned 18. She is learning to navigate this life. Although she is still under my roof and is waiting to graduate High School May of 2026, she is doing her own thing, her way. She makes her own money, and pretty much is self-sufficient/grace sufficient, (it’s all about God over here). I said all of that to say, it’s my time.

I got married 4 years ago, my husband taught me very quickly that love, confidence, joy, peace, and everything I need comes from God, not man. Now I truly know, this joy I have the world didn’t give it to me, my family, my husband, my children, my parents, no one in this world gave it to me, and no one in this world can Take it away. I can give it away, but they can’t take it away.

I have to remember that the battle is already won. Christ defeated the enemy when he died on the cross and descended to hell and took the keys of life and death from Staten and paraded him around hell in front of his demons, then he rose again on the 3rd day with all power in his hand. Now we all know before he ascended to heaven and took his seat on the right hand of God, he stopped on earth to visit a few people to show he had risen, however, my point is, the battle has already been won. Depression has already broken off me,oppression has already been broken off me, poverty has already broken off me, lust has already broken off me. They are no longer my lot. Failure, set back and disappointment have already been broken off me. It is my time to stand and be who Christ has called me to be, go where he has called me to go, say what he has called me to say, do what he has called me to do, go where he has called me to go. It is my time to see the goodness of God, it is my time to see his glory in my life, it is my time to experience joy in him, peace in him, favor in him, love, in him. However, I can’t experience any of it if I can’t get over the past.

My past or the residue of my past can’t go on with me in my future. I cannot and will not allow it to ride with me in 2026. I didn’t intend for it to follow me in 2025, but it did. That is why my book isn’t published, and this blog is not monetize. Well, I’m over it. No more living in defeat. Time to move forward. Time to be the beautiful boss I am, Time to move forward and be who Christ has called me to be, time to walk in the Love God has for me, walk in favor, peace, prosperity, love and joy.

To do that, my understanding has to change. My mindset has to change. to do that I have to surrender all. Surrender all I think I know, surrender all of my worldly power, (which I have none) and surrender my worldly mind set. My God is a Jealous God and he shares his glory with no one.

The parenting part of my job is over, the covering and protecting my children from hurt, harm and danger part of my job is over. I surrender it all to you Lord. Have your way in my life. Use me as you please. I say yes Lord, they will be done in my life. I am an empty vessel for you. Holy Spirit move in my life. Set a fire, down in my soul Lord, so I don’t let go. I hunger and thirst after you Lord. I will follow you for the rest of my days. No longer will I speak defeat over my life, no longer will I live for this world, no longer will I allow fear to keep me stagnant. I will go forward in you Christ Jesus.

Amen