I was at work today and I was thinking. I was thinking about how good it feels to have overcome depression. I am still working on other things but not to have any more mind battles and thoughts of killing myself and no more negative thoughts. I can see clearly now. It really is a beautiful thing.

Then I thought of the post I created some weeks ago where I was talking about the mind really is a battlefield. There really is a war going on and the prize is my mind. Then I began to think about Mark 8:36 which says what does it profit a man to gain the world but to lose his soul.

Our soul is our mind, our will, and our emotions. What does it profit us to overcome mental illness only to lose it all again by falling in love with something other than Christ which helped you overcome or being diagnosed with dementia or Alzheimer later down the line.

We have to stay plugged into Christ by praying. Putting on our armor every day. Covering our minds in the blood of Jesus, reading the word of God daily and hiding his word in our heart by remembering the versus, this is our sword. This is what we use to fight our enemy when he comes at us with the evil suggestions and the negative mindset.

Living Holy as God is Holy. We are not a perfect people and never will be because of this flesh. God knows that. He knows we are going to sin, so we have to make sure we are quick to repent when we do sin and return to Christ. That is how we live Holy.

With Christ on our hearts when we wake up until we lay down, worshiping him and communing with him throughout the day. Allowing his spirit to speak to us and following his instructions and he navigates the day with us.

Each day I have been trying to focus on and memorize a new verse. It has been difficult. I see I will have to get flash cards out and write them down, however, I will not give up. I will be successful.

There is a song that says “I just can’t give up now, I’ve come too far from where I started from. Nobody told me, that the road would be easy and I don’t believe he bought me this far to leave me”

This fight, isn’t for the weak. We are soldiers. You are not alone in this fight. As much as it feels like it sometimes, I know I am not alone. We are all on the same team. We have to stay focused and remember, you have to stay connected to what bought you out. For me it was praying, fasting, learning what my weapons of war were and how to use them effectively. Learning who Christ is and how to live Holy. How to become who he called me to be. Learning who my enemy is and how to defeat him and his tactics. Money or friends or a therapist is not what delivered me.

Because that is how I came out, that is what I have to stay connected to, to stay free. Dementia and Alzheimer are not my lot. Meaning that is not my destiny. They can tell me it runs on my mom’s side of the family, or my dad’s side of the family or both, so I will get it as well, however, the word of God says in Jeremiah 29:11 I know the thoughts that I think toward you, said the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not evil, to give you an expected end.

So you see, I have to believe that mental illness, dementia, all of it, none of it is peace. It is evil, and it is not my expected end.

In order to get what God has for me, I have to learn what His will is for my life. I have to learn who he is and learn his ways. It won’t happen overnight and it isn’t always easy but I just can’t give up now. I’ve come too far from where I started from.

My faith has brought me this far, and I will continue to run on in faith in Christ Jesus.